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Digital Native Teens: Growing Up on the 21st Century Internet

Digital Native Teens: Growing Up on the 21st Century Internet

Digital native children—21st-century teenagers who grew up with guidance from the internet—developed a far broader perspective than what their local communities could provide them.

Let’s dive into a unique and special subset of teenagers who grew up alongside the wild yet calm, misleading yet knowledgeable world of the internet.

As a child who grew up locked at the center of China— far beyond the ocean line where new information lies— opportunities and modernization here are limited. We won't celebrate Western holidays at all; Eastern holidays just mean having a meal and being filial with our parents and grandparents.

Being far away from technical expertise and technology advancements doesn’t mean being disconnected from the world nor the internet, you may say. Glad you asked: the Great Firewall of China took care of that, blocking most global news and outside information. Local Chinese media often presents a single perspective of the world, and diversity is nearly nonexistent. Despite this, the intranet online communities seemed to satisfy what most people wanted in terms of entertainment and emotional connection.

Yet, despite this challenging landscape within China, the Internet still granted a small group of people the ability to grow beyond what the local community can provide them with. As long as you know what you're looking for, you can find workarounds for the Great Firewall with just a few web searches. Then, we will be able to connect with people from all around the globe, learn from the world's greatest educators, and gain access to the latest information on technology advancements.

Me personally, I learned about the game Minecraft when I was 8. The game at that time was gaining popularity worldwide, but still hard to find communities within China playing it, especially because it requires a fee upfront - which defies the Asian way of doing things free to play, even though this upfront fee can improve the user experience much more, and means less buggy and less advertising within the game. Again, we are isolated.

The Chinese educational system promotes "follow the order" and "work harder, not smarter." However, I personally found myself the opposite of both of these, and struggled to discover my belonging.

The game to me is an escape from the testing world we're in China. Here within Minecraft's realm, we have the freedom to create and build everything we can ever dream of. And apparently it's been proven that Minecraft fosters children's creativity and collaboration skills - both of which are not welcomed in a Chinese institution, which made me even more of an outcast.

Yet, I loved the game. And very soon it pulled me through a portal for international communication and discovery. By the age of 9, I'm already playing and talking with people from around the globe, despite my childish and unnatural English skill, I made friends and built relations with such a digital community. They provided me with insights on what the world outside of our local city looks like, and how culturally different and diverse the human population can be.

Later on, my friends within Minecraft brought me onto Discord and YouTube, now always my go-to choice for entertainment, vastly differs from the platforms like Youku and Bilibili which my classmates, friends, and basically everyone here are using.

This relation and habit of going online onto the internet in search for a full-fledged of perspectives followed me throughout my teenage years. I'm a student with an interest in Computing, but never gained much opportunity to learn within my community - the technology here is falling behind, and my school was still using Windows XP in 2019.

Until, I found that YouTube can be used to watch more than just Minecraft videos - well, that surely is a hard thing to realize, I guess. Each video on computing I've watched presents me with a brand-new perspective of the world and computer itself. They led me to Google and StackOverflow, where I can find more resources and expand on my knowledge.

Soon, I started making my own projects - web servers, ad blockers, chat bots, etc... - something so rare that you'll almost never see in a normal middle school with a test-based education system in China.

I'm an anomaly. That one weird person within a classroom doing fancy stuff that nobody understands. I float away and make hundreds of sketches of ideas during class, because that test explanation never really inspires me.

And of course, I later even redefined the education by connecting the dots and knowledge I've learned from the world's bests by finding critical security vulnerabilities of my own high school's door access system and reporting the bug to school officials. People are, well, more than shocked, I shall say.

Unintentionally, I built my kingdom of self-learning and lifelong learning skills through the Internet. A skill that has been proven very helpful and important to learning and future outcomes.

One time when I was doom scrolling a friend's posts on my phone, I saw a really interesting keyword that I didn’t know - “Does anyone want to go to HSYLC this summer?" I was intrigued, and my online search skill that I've trained throughout the years of learning computing served me the best. That year, I got accepted into HSYLC - one of Harvard's largest events in China, and HWeek - where I got the chance of going to Boston and studying at Harvard for a week.

I finally found similar-minded people and realized my place and where I belong. The last string of decisions was placed on studying abroad in the autumn of grade 11.

Surely, the internet can do awful things and hurt people, but so does everything else. For me, this opportunity of being alive in a digital age might be the best thing that has ever happened to me. I have gained more opportunities and seen a bigger world than what my local bubble can ever provide me with.

Reflecting back on my journey, I appreciate every minute of it.

Parents

从好久好久之前,我就开始不经意的问自己这个问题“如果今天是我爸爸妈妈的葬礼,我会在场上哭出来吗?”问题的答案一直是否定的,这是为什么呢? #Parents

That. HWeek. 2023.

过去的短短一周对我来说,是一场意义非凡的「旅行」
抱着对这个世界的迷茫和期待,一群同龄人在HWeek相遇。

每一个人,从学生到Trip Leader,都有着他们自己独特的人生和使命。
但当我们一起聚集在异国他乡,当我们的人生短暂的交错,
我们一起碰撞出了无数的火花,留下了无数的温暖。

走下去,是为了与更多的有趣灵魂相遇。
或许,这也是继HSYLC后的又一场梦,
一场永远留存在心中的梦。

Emptiness

You thought you had a choice, but did you?
You already know what to do, right?
Pressure made everything imperfect, is that really something I want?
I've made up my mind to apply using this score.
I had enough of testing and pressure.
I want to create things but not to "reach" things

Aug 24 2023 17:30 during flight to macau

Why would I say that "I would even refuse Harvard if they accepted me"
I think there is a reason behind it

I'm not looking for academic achievement and advancement
I want to create things, but not to research stuff.

I want a university that celebrates technology creativity

In fact, I clearly know what I want

Think.

他们看不到未来的光芒与需要做的事情,因为他们的见识不足以支撑起他们的生活。

性格的决定期是在初中还是在那之前就已基本定型?

我曾以朋友的身份试着去影响与改变一个人,但在我在除我之外的各种因素下显得无能为力。

为什么爱,作为这么强大的东西,用来对付人类认知,还是显得无能为力。

青春期,我们是那么的想和父母变得不一样,为什么很多人最后还是和父母一样?

我的价值观是在Youtube形成的?

Only deadlines can motive me.

52Hz

我们被强加了没有人知道的东西与任务

我不断的扼杀着自己身上的某种东西,我的情况肯定属于虽生犹死吧。

一个舒服,但又不舒服的环境 —— 总比在街头漫游来的好的环境 —— 让我一直在一个地方徘徊

我们都深知孤独的感受,我们为了保护自己,建立起了自己的防御系统。
一个有着过分爱的家庭 —— 总是比未知的世界要来的自然许多

家,对我来说,并不是一个休息的地方

无数无数的事情不能公开说,无数无数的情感不值得被宣泄
不是这些不被关注,而是一切的一切都已经陷死在了一个循环之中

我的父亲不愿意打破这个循环 —— 他既不知道哪里有问题,也不知道如何去做
我的母亲没有任何主观意识 —— 对于一个青春期的孩子,替他操心每天需要穿什么是没有意义的

而我,也不知道是哪里出错了。

无数无数的语言,无数无数的情感,被淹没了
“我不知道” —— 这句话是什么意思呢

“有人陪”真的就不是孤独了吗?
"去随便一个补习班",便能解决问题吗?
“有人爱”真的就是被爱了吗?
“默认”真的就是肯定吗?

也许一切的一切,都是因为我所表现出来的“脆弱”
一切的一切,源自“害羞”
如今,陷入了一个爱的死循环。

May.28

母亲节.

又是一年的母亲节到来
大家都为母亲准备了什么呢?

至于我,一个一起床就一头扎进书房“写作业”的
“逆反期”teens来说,今天也是一个特殊的日子吧。

一只小猫

我们家自我初中以来的氛围异常和睦,很少争吵。
总有一方会在恰当的时候变成一块儿布,把所有的负面情绪都掩藏起来。
我一直觉得,我和父亲这样的关系是很正常的。
至于母亲,她早已“销声匿迹” -- 她的存在与否似乎不是很重要的问题。
在很长的一段时间里,我也一直想尝试战胜一切「不可能」的东西。
我觉得我能够战胜友谊不能天长地久的神话、战胜青春期与父母的争吵,甚至战胜一代代人之间的「代沟」
带给我这个信心的是我父亲,在我和我朋友的眼中,他是所有人所见过的最好的家长 -- 没有之一。
他在我的眼中还是颇有学识与远见的,尽管我跟他说的很多东西他也不是很了解,但毕竟,每个人都拥有自己独特的的喜好与专长。
我认为我有能力取得一些与众不同的结果,但我在这迷雾之中,逐渐迷失了自我。

Good Times

As time flies,
so does the vast changes that take place.

This is a mind’s shelter from the noisy outside world.
A place for daydreaming, relaxing, and recording.
Take some time, wind down, read, and connect
The world is much more than we’ve seen.

Thank you for joining with me,

on this journey towards the great unknown.