They really does know how to talk
They know what they are doing - not intentionally maybe - but they know.
Might be just inherited from parents or built it out during childhood.
What I think:
I wish to have ability to talk fun and engage in conversations like they did.
Why?
I love to hang out with them and they are the most family feeling friends I have here at USC
I believe if I had the ability to talk like they did I will be more liken at this circle
I want to engage in the conversation, not just be a listener.
I feel like I'm lacking behind
They all know different languages
I still do not feel like I worth it.
I still do not feel I belong
I still don't know where I am
I still wish for connections
I have feeling for things.
But my brain is not always processing or know what and why and logic.
It almost feels like some of the scenes trigger my emotional response without needing my brain to process
I have feeling for things that I don't necessarily know how to talk or describe or think.
I just feel.